Said I'm willin' and I'm able
I'm ready 2 place my cards on the table
I been holdin' back this feeling 4 far 2 long
And now that I'm willin' It's a fact ?
it's truly mighty strong ...
Oh Lord, I'm willin', willin', able (Willin', able)
I wanna dance and sing, somebody watch me do my thing...
~ Prince ~ Willing and Able ~
The other day I was having a conversation with an individual from the oil and gas industry, where I have spent the majority of my working career. I found myself telling them that I have been on “dis-ability” for the last year ... immediately they responded with “I am sorry to hear this”, for which I replied “oh no that’s okay”.
As solemn as they were, I was the opposite. My upbeat, positive expression stemmed from all the that I have gained from my illness experience. Good things always come out of bad. Along with the valuable lessons I have shared, my cancer diagnosis is an “ability” or “this-ability” and not a “dis-ability”.
Cancer has given me the ability to re-address what matters in my life. It has shown me my husbands true unconditional love. It has given me the opportunity to improve my relationship with my family. It has helped me appreciate life and the beauty around me. It has allowed me to learn and grow as an individual. It has helped me face my fears. It has allowed me to find acceptance, courage and strength I didn’t know I had. It has given me new confidence. It has helped me further build character. It has made me grateful for every day. It has increased my faith in a Higher Power. It has given me the ability to enjoy a break from working. It has given me the push I need to do the things I had been putting off. It has made me not waste time. It has allowed me to see things with more clarity for what they really are. It has aligned me with the right people in my life ... blessings.
We are all one day closer to dying, yet the difference is that someone in their great wisdom has given me an expiry date. So it begs to differ, is better to know when and how or is ignorance bliss? If you knew your expiry date and more importantly believed it, would you do things differently? Would you be willing and able?
Prior to my diagnosis, I was reluctantly living my life, easily accepting defeat, and believing that I was unable to be whom I wanted to be. Looking back, that was when I was living a real “dis-abled” life. Now more than ever, I am ready, willing and able.
“Dis-ease is solely and purely corrective; it is neither vindictive nor cruel, but it is the means adopted by our own souls to point out to us our faults, to prevent our making greater errors, to hinder us from doing more harm, and to bring us back to the path of Truth and Light from which we should never have strayed.”
~ Edward Bach, creator of Bach Flower remedies