Walking barefoot now
Can't tell north from south
But no split hair's gonna get me down, no
I'm stayin' above the flat line
And I'm ahead of the curve
Take a piece of the sunshine with me
On a red-eye flight to another world
~ Ahead Of The Curve ~ Monsters of Folk ~
Life throws you so many curveballs when you least expect it. One day can be almost perfect and another day leaving you wondering where you went wrong. Wouldn’t it be nice if life had a pause button?
I will say it is easier to block out everything that makes the world not seem like the great, fantastic place I want it to be. Hide from the bad stuff because I just want the good parts. I wasn’t sure if I was strong enough to take it on ... turns out, I am stronger than I gave myself credit for.
The never-ending struggle of knowing things that I actually have control over and those of which I cannot change. The wisdom part is what I struggle with the most ... knowing when to keep going and when to stop. Knowing the difference is a life-long process. And through these distressful moments, I strive to be braver than the times before, armed with courage. I realize that there are times for me to just close my eyes and let everything go. I need to let the Him have control ... believing that the greatests lessons are given to his best students.
Without a doubt, having a balanced relationship with Russell has allowed us to tackle most issues together. We trust that each other is looking out for the other. Individually we are strong, yet combined has made us a force ready for anything. Every step in unison ... I realized that if we can deal with cancer, we can really deal with anything that comes our way.
No matter what we may be going through, there is always beauty that surrounds us each and every day ... remembering to find it and take some time out to savor it, even briefly. I believe this beauty has a positive energy and vibe that we can tap into when we need to... to recharge ourselves in the midst of a difficult situation and replace negativity with the healthier alternative.
Nothing is always perfect and I believe there is a greater plan in play. I can be the one who decides how full or empty my glass is while life continues to throw these curveballs ... choosing to hit it right out of the park.