"Is it worth it, let me work it... I put my bang down, flip it and reverse it... If you got a big deal, let me search it... I'd like to get to know ya so I could show ya...
Just make sure you ahead of the game..."
~ Missy Elliott ~ Work It ~
Yesterday I looked at the calendar and the weeks I have been on the Gerson Therapy ~ finishing off week 29 yesterday and starting WEEK 30 today. Yep, completed 29 weeks ~204 days ~ 4,896 hours ~ 293,760 minutes ... and counting! Since the inception of the programme there has been a few changes in regards to the reduction of medication and coffee "treatments", and the addition of certain foods again. But really the changes have been physical ~ my energy levels are better, my skin tone is better (carrot glow y'all), and my body has changed. There has been a significant shift in the last couple of weeks. It is hard to describe but I what I can say is that I feel like I am truly healing. One of the naturopath's I have been seeing said to me last week that "Once you start living your life instead of preventing your death, healing begins". And it struck a cord, an aha! moment ... now I think I have already adopted that attitude, and have had to in a way due to the severity of the situation, but it is interesting when someone else says it to you in a way that just makes sense. Hopefully it does for those of you that are reading this.
Every day I work my programme. I don't know how else to explain it - not much changes in the routine ... I am still on 13 fresh juices on the hour, every hour ... I am still on 4 coffee enemas ... I am still have oatmeal with fruit for breakfast ... I am still eating the special Hippocrates soup, baked potatoes and veggies for lunch AND dinner ... I am still on castor oil twice a week ... I am still on the Gerson medications combined with herbal and homeopath meds. My days still begin at 6:30AM and end at 8:30PM ... I do have time between 9:30am and Noon & 2:30pm and 5:00pm for phone/personal visits, yoga, walks, meditation, blogging, and writing ~ staying pretty close to home though. My day continues to be very structured, and I really don't mind the routine because I know what is coming and so does my body. This is the biggest job in my life, my pivotal moment ... to heal my body.
If you think about it we plan a great deal in our lives .... school, vacations, celebrations, investments ... yet if we don't really plan how to truly take care of ourselves ~ our bodies, our minds ~ the rest may never come. This is not to be pessimistic, but merrily going along, going thru the motions, thinking that we will never get sick, nothing bad will happen and it won't be me, is probably not the best approach. That is the approach I had. I NEVER thought I would be in the situation I am in now, battling cancer. Yet as I have said before, this is truly a blessing in my life. Really because, I was so detailed oriented, so focused on the small stuff, and missing out on the big picture. That has completely changed now. And maybe this is all happening because I had to stop "sweating the small stuff". My mind was cluttered with detail conversations about "stuff" ~ what she did, why he did that, what did that really mean ... and internally feeling like it was "all happening to me" because I just wasn't good enough. A very familiar pattern of thinking in my life ... a pattern that has now thankfully ended. Ended because over the last 29 weeks I have worked really hard to understand and make those changes.
When we create harmony in our own minds and hearts, we find it in our lives. And sometimes it takes the earth to move, or the rug to be pulled beneath us, or the universe to make us just stop for this to happen. The signs are always there, but when your head is buried in the details, you miss it. So if you can, take a moment to just be present, and open yourself up to these signs. You will know what they are ... if things don't feel right, don't ignore it, act on it now. Don't wait for a painful defining moment in your life to force you to make those changes. Trust me, I know.
♥ Heal your past, Live your present, Dream your future ♥