" Layers ... "

“ ... The whole world

A magical spark

Shock waves of Joy

A simple touch

A mystery

The sparkle of life

The science of things

Features

Layers

Layers of Love

United ... “

~ Norton ~ Layers ~ 

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Layers of forgiveness ... as we continue to break through, we get closer to peace and gratitude.  Because we aspire for a lighter heart.  

... choosing to embrace the reality of your hurt 

and offer forgiveness regardless of the persons response ... 

As we sit in silence for months or years, we risk being thrown back to the initial hurt.  And we may realize that this hurt has now become a dull and nagging pain.  We begin to ask ourselves, have we fully forgiven?

We have an opportunity to discover that an unwanted root of bitterness may be springing up within.  We must be brave and have courage as we begin to peel another layer of that onion, shed a few more tears and go back through the process ... again and again.

There is an emotional core packed tightly under the layers we have built to protect us from an early age.  And we have even more layers to penetrate.  As we peel our layers, we learn to trust our heart again, to live and love freely and not to build more layers of protection.  

... the cost of forgiveness is great but the reward is even greater ... 

This emotional core, out of the blue, at any time, reminds you of the offense ... and you realize you haven’t forgotten it after all.  Again, you begin to peel another layer and shed a few more tears.  And you believe, finally a step closer to forgiveness.

Purging your heart of bitterness, anger, hurt or pain begins by choosing to accept life as it is.  And like the onion analogy, our layers are our makeup.  The more we peel, the more we get to our true self.  

Yet forgiveness can be hard and to continue hold on to some emotional trauma, we block our energy.  And, if we cannot process the emotional effects of the event at the time it happens, we shelf the pain and develop coping skills to keep it hidden from ourselves.  In essence, we are splitting ourselves into pieces and losing touch with the ones we can’t cope with.  This helps to mask our pain because we are no longer in touch  with our whole.

... forgiveness is the new beginning 

at the end of the healing process ... 

We have been taught that forgiveness is saying sorry to those we hurt.  But we intuitively know that it is more about finding the individual truth of what forgiveness is for you, personally.

Your personal state of forgiveness ... where you find freedom, courage and strength to make the changes in your life to find true joy.  Forgiveness begins with self-love ... accepting yourself and others, as is.  Once we view other sentient beings as another interpretation of the Divine, we can begin to practice forgiveness, because we are truly just forgiving ourselves.

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" Apathy ... "

“ You want to look at the edge of madness

Just to see to see

You want to find what you're missing out on ... 

Now you're bend on the edge of blindness

What you trying to see?

You want to walk with a sould of darkness ...

But stepping on those coals

You get those blisters on your feel 

Well, don't you come here wasting my time ...

Can't there be some other way

Can't we make you stay

In apathy? ...

Don't you feel it all the love?

As below and so above

Apathy “

~ Tea Party ~ Apathy ~ 

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Sometimes it isn’t about trust or lack of communication, it is simply apathy.  Apathy is a lack of feeling, emotion, interest, and concern.  It is a state of indifference, or the suppression of emotions such as concern, excitement, motivation and passion.  When one has an absence of interest in or concern about emotional, social, spiritual, or physical life, they are called perfunctoriness or apathetic.

Consider ... we are born into the world knowing and thinking nothing.  It could be said that we are purely made up of experiences and happenings.  We become a product of our inherited environment and the condition of those before us.  We develop habits, beliefs and somehow manage to live in a society full of others in a meaningful way.

Our conditioning shapes our experience ... and without this awareness we would never know the freedom of living without it.  

Then perhaps the problem isn’t the conditioning but the anger it generates.  We are often overcome by anger which clouds our judgement.  We need a relief or a way out.  And sometimes we convince ourselves that apathy is the answer.  

... our attachment to detachment ...

Apathy is build from pseudo-confidence because it is born out of fear and the pain of rejection and regret.  Love does not thrive in a state of apathy.  It is a state of hopelessness that echoes with thoughts of “what does it matter? why bother trying anymore?”.   Apathy simply removes the will to exert any more energy or care any longer about the outcome.

when they’ve given up on emotion entirely ...

when they feel nothing towards you ... 

When autopilot mode kicks in and there is indifference towards one another, it is hard for a relationship to survive.  And because there are no arguments, everything may seem okay on the surface.  Yet, it is simply a perfect illusion that you have silently agreed to live in that manner.  When we close ourselves down in a relationship, we’ve shut off caring, growth, learning and our life.  

Silently consider the indifference in your relationships and reflect on your responses ... and if that relationship matters to you, you may want to consider you hear.

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" Falling Out … "

Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through to you
like you don't appreciate all that I do.
you gotta show me that you want me to stay
don't turn & walk away

I don't know what to do,
how did we end up here this way?
what are we gonna do?
I'm slowly falling out.. 

don't let your pride get in the way,
don't throw it away
Slowly falling, slowly falling

How did we end up here this way?

~ Keyshia Cole ~ Falling Out ~

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Oh look, another falling out ... how many does that make?  lost track?  can’t keep count?   ... The thoughts going through my head recently, as I heard about some “people” who we use to be in our friends circle, but you guessed it … had another falling out.  

And I can’t help the little smile on my face.  Judgement, most definitely.  You see when you have a “falling out with someone” you hope that after the oh so drama~ugliness, there is a lesson in the experience, and there always is.  But prior it is all about blame.  We blame others first and then if we are truthful, we take responsibility as well.  

Intentionally giving very little energy to them, I have to say that even hearing about yet another falling out with these folks, well, let's just say, there seems to be quite a few "victims".  And sure it was a trigger.  Life goes on, it is what is … and then a conversation stirs up old feelings, old emotions, old thoughts. old drama.  Almost wise to start a support group for all the people that have experienced their wrath ... I know there would be double digits in attendance.  Perhaps we can share the lessons, who knows the message may be the same.

Mental affirmation: reliving the past, not interested ... predicting the future, too boring ... staying present and accepting what is, freedom.

Sad really, because their “new” world supporters rave on soapboxes about their compassion, kindness, generosity, love, motivation ... blah blah blah ... judgement, most definitely ... warranted, I guess that is up for debate ... maybe just ask the potential support group I mentioned that have been messed around by their behaviour, I’m sure they would have some interesting insight.  You can call it what you want … I see it as just an observation on how life works itself out perfectly!  

ॐ Thank-you karma, thank-you ॐ

Another observation ... 

one common factor in all these “fall outs” are it involves the same people.  Again, you can blame others, say that they are jealous, envious, insecure, immature but if you have a record of these broken relationships, maybe just maybe, take a look in the mirror ... or not.  And really at the end, we are ultimately responsible as to how we let people treat us ... well at least how we react to it.  The tricky part is the manipulation.  And these folks are good, real good.  Actually could probably write a book about, or even host a workshop.  Haha, I wonder how many would register for the “how to be an opportunist” course starring ****.  

Stage names are great when you are “acting” out your life rather than living your truth

Le sigh ... honesty moment: you can visualize how the confrontation will go down, and it never ever works out that way ... you lose your nerve, you are unprepared, you are unsure or maybe, you just don’t give a damn, yeah that’s it, ask yourself does it really matter anymore ... no.  

SO then why the blog then if there is now concern ... observations, observations, observations .... just an example as to how the law of karmic balance works, here and now ... you get exactly what you deserve.  If you think you deserve better, then let others know ... and if they don’t agree, you may be just as lucky to experience an “enlightening” fall out too ॐ