" My Work Is Done … "

I don't wanna work

Work makes me lazy

And I've got stuff I gotta do

Just for fun

Hey, I don't wanna work

Just give me the money

As if I had a gun on me

Cuz my work is done

Yeah my work is done

My work is done

I'm out of my cave, I'm into the ring

I'm ready to play

Get off the ropes and off the rails

Okay I'm game

Uh-huh, yeah I'm free

I need time to kill

Hey I'm on a rampage ...

~ Dragonette ~ My Work Is Done ~ 

***

I use to work long hours in a high stress job as I ran the corporate treadmill.  Always looking to get further, to make more money, to get more status, to get a better title, to buy more things .... and it was all while I was on a sugar/caffeine rush ... and I loved it, well at first anyways.

But it took its toll on all aspects of my life ... health, personal relationships and especially the most important relationship I had ... with myself.  I thought I was doing something meaningful, but it just took me away from everything else in my life.  

I still remember the day when my boss said “look at me, you can be just like me ... phone, parking ... and it was as if she was speaking a different language because I realized that was not what I wanted and that my sacrifices are not worth it.  And of course the journey continued from there when you ask what do you really want and what are you doing to get it?

I was tired of the question, what do you do for a living … as if it defined who I was, or gave a price tag to my worth.  I didn't care anymore what title I had, how much money I made or who I was in charge of … I didn't want that life but didn't know how to change it and then … change happened.  Yes, from my past experience, change use to come from desperation.  More reactive than proactive …. looking for external affirmation for allowance.  Thankfully, now it has shifted, change stems from motivation.  

… Motivation to make an amazing life, a well deserved life, a life I’ve always wanted ...

 

Easier said than done, yes.  A risky, bold move, perhaps but once you make a decision, the universe will do everything in it’s power to support it ... just remember that there are infinite paths we can take to reach our destination, so the route may be unfamiliar at times ... I never imagined from tragedy could come so much clarity regarding what I wanted, where I wanted to go and who I really am … 

“I really want to live my life instead of work my life ... “

" Competition ... "

She's got no idea where you've been

No idea what you've been doin'

You've been living dangerous

You're trying to keep it just our secret ..

You better learn to be discreet

If you wanna keep it just our secret ...

Goodness I like this

It's risky business ...

That you never knew existed

You try to keep it secret

You can try and try to keep it ...

She's the competition ...

~ Dragnette ~ Competition ~

***

We seem to be surrounded by competition in our life.  The addiction to the energetic reaction that you are beating or could beat another person within a specific activity.  

But does that apply to “healing” as well?  Sadly, yes, that is what I have experienced.  It doesn’t make sense, I didn’t think it was possible ... I thought it was about sharing and caring ... instead it was others judging according to how they think they are being judged ... “I know better, I know best” ... a far cry from a space of healing for me ... my journey, my judgement.

You see the basic principle as to why we compete is to experience what we believe is victory over another.  Yet, it is within you, in your mind, your ego that generates a response ... because there is no universal recognition blessing you with gratification.

Isn’t it really about the craving of recognition, 

love and acceptance?  

Aren’t we hoping to receive the gold stars 

that are handed out in life?

Sadly we when we crave something, we create an energy around us of desperation and neediness, pushing away the very thing that we crave.  I have learned to release all attachments to a particular outcome in order for the very thing to come into my life.

Now what if we don’t compete anymore?  Could we un-limit ourselves to activities that give us sufficient ground for competing.  Will we try things we have never done before simply because we will no longer be directed by the mind, telling us which activities to follow?  Perhaps there would be no more judgement of self because there is no right or wrong.  Perhaps all would be from the starting point of self-enjoyment and self-movement.

So why not fully express ourselves here in the physical reality, unconditionally and within this allow and support each other to do the same, so that there is no harm done in thought or deed towards ourselves and others?

For me, life is not a competition or race anymore.  You see when I can be sincerely excited about the accomplishments of my peers, I seem to find that my life goes more smoothly ... because when I feel that someone doesn’t deserve their happiness, or that I am more deserving, then I am operating from a place of false pride and ignorance.

My journey ... I believe that we all deserve happiness and we all define our life by our own criteria.  I believe we can choose our state of mind and it has nothing to do with outside events.  I believe we are in charge of our life, attitude and perception.  I believe life is good when you claim it good ... my judgement.

" Change ... "

I watch the ripples change their size

But never leave the stream

Of warm impermanence

So the days float through my eyes ...

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

(turn and face the strain)

Ch-ch-changes

Don't want to be a richer man

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

(turn and face the strain)

Ch-ch-changes

Just gonna have to be a different man

Time may change me

But I can't trace time

Strange fascination, fascinating me

Ah changes are taking the pace I'm going through ...

Pretty soon now you're gonna get a little older

Time may change me

But I can't trace time

~ David Bowie ~ Change ~

***

There are times when things move slowly and don’t seem to change much.  Then, suddenly, things change quickly.  We learn to accept that change is a part of life.  And that life is a process of beginnings and endings.  But how do we cope?

We live in a culture that has taught us to be 

uncomfortable with uncertainty. 

Life changes are challenging because they force us out of our comfort zone.  They force us to let go of the familiar.  They force us to face the future with a feeling of vulnerability.  This in turn makes us fearful and anxious and this is normal because now your future is filled with questions.  Questions with variable answers.  

Fear ... are we born with it or taught it?

Whether positive or negative, life changes cause us to leave behind the familiar and force us to adjust to new ways of living.  Looking at the bright side, transitions can allow us to learn about our strengths and to explore what we really want out of life.  This can be a time of reflection bringing a sense of renewal, stability and new balance. 

Having the confidence in knowing you can and will move forward helps.  Start by identifying your purpose in life and the things that fulfill you.  Quiet your mind and focus on what you can control.  Convince yourself that the experience you are facing is just a temporary defeat rather than a huge failure.  Surround yourself with positive and friendly associations.  And spend your time and energy on creating a positive future.

Take advantage of the fork in the road 

and explore what your ideal life would look like.  

Every life transition provides a learning opportunity that can be so profound it changes your perspective on life after you have moved through it.  So whether life transition evolves slowly or is forced by an unexpected event, remember this period of time doesn’t have to be purgatory.  

Realize that you don’t have to wait to get through it so you can reach your desired destination.  Have faith you are planting the seeds for a glorious new phase of your life.  Trust me, some days these are the only thoughts that keep me going ...

“When we are no longer able to change a situation, 

we are challenged to change ourselves” 

~ Viktor E. Frankl