" Apathy ... "

“ You want to look at the edge of madness

Just to see to see

You want to find what you're missing out on ... 

Now you're bend on the edge of blindness

What you trying to see?

You want to walk with a sould of darkness ...

But stepping on those coals

You get those blisters on your feel 

Well, don't you come here wasting my time ...

Can't there be some other way

Can't we make you stay

In apathy? ...

Don't you feel it all the love?

As below and so above

Apathy “

~ Tea Party ~ Apathy ~ 

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Sometimes it isn’t about trust or lack of communication, it is simply apathy.  Apathy is a lack of feeling, emotion, interest, and concern.  It is a state of indifference, or the suppression of emotions such as concern, excitement, motivation and passion.  When one has an absence of interest in or concern about emotional, social, spiritual, or physical life, they are called perfunctoriness or apathetic.

Consider ... we are born into the world knowing and thinking nothing.  It could be said that we are purely made up of experiences and happenings.  We become a product of our inherited environment and the condition of those before us.  We develop habits, beliefs and somehow manage to live in a society full of others in a meaningful way.

Our conditioning shapes our experience ... and without this awareness we would never know the freedom of living without it.  

Then perhaps the problem isn’t the conditioning but the anger it generates.  We are often overcome by anger which clouds our judgement.  We need a relief or a way out.  And sometimes we convince ourselves that apathy is the answer.  

... our attachment to detachment ...

Apathy is build from pseudo-confidence because it is born out of fear and the pain of rejection and regret.  Love does not thrive in a state of apathy.  It is a state of hopelessness that echoes with thoughts of “what does it matter? why bother trying anymore?”.   Apathy simply removes the will to exert any more energy or care any longer about the outcome.

when they’ve given up on emotion entirely ...

when they feel nothing towards you ... 

When autopilot mode kicks in and there is indifference towards one another, it is hard for a relationship to survive.  And because there are no arguments, everything may seem okay on the surface.  Yet, it is simply a perfect illusion that you have silently agreed to live in that manner.  When we close ourselves down in a relationship, we’ve shut off caring, growth, learning and our life.  

Silently consider the indifference in your relationships and reflect on your responses ... and if that relationship matters to you, you may want to consider you hear.

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" Bad Things … "

When you came in the air went out.

And every shadow filled up with doubt.

I don't know who you think you are,

But before the night is through,

I wanna do bad things with ...

I'm the kind to sit up in his room.

Heart sick an' eyes filled up with blue.

I don't know what you've done to me,

But I know this much is true:

I wanna do bad things with ...

~ The Radiacs ~ Bad Things ~

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I use to believe that bad things happen to good people.  That is just the way life is.  Now I believe that things just happen.  And it’s your viewpoint, your perspective that determines if it is good or bad ... because these things that “happen” can be considered as neutral ... and your reactions determines it all.

When my body was designated with cancer, I believed I was being punished for all the “bad” thing I did in this life ... and maybe even paying for from previous lifestimes.  So I believed that if I prayed hard enough, I could reverse all of that.  

But if you aren’t buying any of this ... why DO bad things happen to good people?  Well, bad things happen to EVERYONE.  

It is naive to believe that one is going to cruise through the human experience without facing evil in some of its severest forms ...

Culturally, I’ve grown up with conversations within the East Indian community such as “it is not far that so much has happened to our family recently”.  But don’t we all get what we are meant to get and what is fair?  Personally, I have come to a place where NOW I can be grateful for all my challenges as I wouldn’t have stumbled upon my strengths if not so.  

Remember, these are the times you find out what you are made of ...

And do we really need to compare ourselves to a less fortunate one to appreciate and be grateful for what is present in our lives.  Do we feel “if only” and things will then be good?  And how can we be so sure of that?  There are times in life we are smaller and other times we are bigger.

I do believe that everything that occurs in life is meant to bring us closer to our soul’s purpose, and everything we are given is a tool to help us.  Every one of us has a unique mission and sometimes we veer off course.  A terminal illness, a divorce, a death of a loved one ... moves us closer to our mission, as painful as it may seem when it occurs, are the cloaked difficulties full of lessons and messages.  

The question is are you paying attention 

because you don't need a major event to listen ...

Personally, when I now speak about this designated dis-ease, I believe it was Divine’s act to shift me out of the thinking, being and living in a different direction ... a direction that required a re-alignment with my higher self, bringing happiness, joy & contentment with no attachment to an outcome.

I do believe EVERYTHING that occurs in my life is for my higher good ... 

Although this one thought has helped me trememendously, I don’t pretend to have a wide angle view on why things happen to me, let alone to anyone else.  Yet personally shifting from a place of “why me” to “why not” allows you to surrender to the process and be open to all the miracles around us.

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