" Wandering ... "

On the eve of another birthday, my mind is wandering.  Wandering, wandering ... I never really thought I would get to the age of 46 ... not because I am a pessimist but because of being cancer-ed.  

Ah yes, for those who have had a similar experience, you don’t really forget.  All the memories of ‘that’ day, being diagnosed, can come rushing back at any moment, triggered by anything remotely to do with the dis-ease.  But rather than choosing this to be viewed as a weakness and being a ‘victim’ to the thought, I am opening to the insights offered.  

My most vivid ‘memory’, the one that did the most damage was my prognosis ... 5 years at best.  I have this attachment because I speak to it, still to this day.  And I write about it, as here present in these words.  Load on the intense programming, patterning and hypnosis of how, what, where, when and why an ill-ness is an ill-ness.  The triggers are present because my mind has been so deluded to the idea of being cancered.  

And so here we are ... on the eve of another birthday and 4.5 years being cancer-ed.  My mantra ... so far so good ... probably because it is a bit of a safety net, a precaution or a disclaimer.  With no claim to being “cured” because, I am not.  

So why back to the wandering mind ... well with an assigned dis-ease, you really are not sure what you will get.  AND cue insight ... that’s what life is all about.  Not really sure what what you will end up with right?  Whether it be an ill-ness you manage, a relationship you tolerate, a burden you carry, or a void within your heart ... pretty much anything can be your demise IF you allow it.  An ill-ness or dis-ease just has intense assumptions that go along with it.

In those moments of weakness, when I say aloud, I don’t know how much more of this I can take, I hear within, count your blessings, they will multiply.  But how?  Begin with breath.  Our sacred connection to the Divine.  And that is where my gratitude begins.  And so tomorrow at first light, I hope to graciously take my first breath, arms and heart wide open ... birth of a new day.

Blessings xx

MC

" Breathe ... "

“ ... A blue-black shade of love.

Sent from above.

My hands are tied, two worlds alone,

And this I know.

Your breath's like wine,

And just like clouds, my skin crawls.

It's so divine, the sky it glows with fields of light.

Did you know that I love you?

Come and lay with me.

I love you.

And on this day, I love you.

You make me feel alive,

And I'll love you

Until the end of time ... “

~ Angels & Airwaves ~ Breathe ~

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The beauty of unifying breath and movement is truly majestic ... with the breathing techniques of Ujjayi pranayama, we can open a gateway, melt snow or ride the waves like a surfer.  What a wonderful visualization regarding prana (energy).  

Our familiarity with meditation and yoga, provides us a better insight on how the body, mind and breath connect.  Ujjayi Pranayama, or ocean breathing, links the physical and energetic universe.  This type of breathing technique, when applied correctly, can open you to unlimited energy.  Superficial breathe will carry you, but the depth you are looking for comes from the deep audible breathes.  The rhythm set by your inner waves.  

Breathing through the nose humidifies the inhaled air, tempers it and removes dust particles ... cleansing as you inhale.  Like a surfer who rides the waves of a real ocean, your inner surf carries from asana to asana.  And the quality of your breath is your guide.  

“ ... The murmuring Ujjayi sound causes the bronchi to vibrate subtly, activating the ciliated epithelium. Dust particles will also be removed from the lungs in this way. During normal breathing, the pressure on the bronchi during exhalation is quite modest. Ujjayi pranayama maintains steady pressure inside the bronchi, even during exhalation. This counteracts the collapsing of the smaller bronchi, allowing the exhalation to be expanded and the amount of residual air in the lungs to be reduced. This breathing technique is especially useful for people who suffer from chronic obstructive lung conditions or asthma ... “

practicing Ujjayi Pranayama (beginners)

• Sit down with your spine upright and close your eyes. 

• Inhale slowly through your nose and exhale through your mouth.

• When exhaling, produce the sound ‘HHHHHAAAA’.

• From now on, keep your mouth closed while exhaling. 

• Generate the same sound as before but this time with your mouth closed. 

• The position of your throat is unchanged and natural. 

• Make sure the sound originates from your throat and not from your nose.

• Now maintain the same throat position while inhaling, producing the same murmuring sound.

• Begin to balance your inhalation with your exhalation. 

• Balance the sound, quality and length of your breath. 

• You’ll probably notice that your exhalation is longer and stronger. 

• Therefore, expand and emphasize your inhalation. 

• This is the first way to expand your breath.

• Feel your heartbeat. 

• Inhale over approximately three to five heartbeats and exhale over the same amount. 

• This is the second way to expand your breath during inhalation as well as exhalation.

• Lift your arms while inhaling, and lower them while exhaling. 

• The way your breath adjusts to the movement (Vinyasa) is the third way to expand your breath. 

• Now let your hands rest in your lap while you let your breath flow. 

• Experience the effect of your breathing. 

• By expanding your breath, you absorb Prana (energy). 

• You might even feel a delicate tingling in the back of your throat. 

• As your practice becomes more refined and advanced, the quality of your breath will become more subtle and you will become more in touch with the Prana.

• Concentrate on the turning point between inhalation and exhalation. 

• Make sure you keep your breath flowing and your throat open. 

• This is the basis for an ongoing flow of energy.

• Now slowly open your breath and return to normal breathing.

“ life is a moving, breathing thing ...we have to be willing to constantly evolve ... perfection is constant transformation ... “

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